Saturday, October 11, 2014

on the nature of being a hybrid

Or we could call this something about plateaux.  See, it should be plateaus with an "s" in English but that just sounds wrong because it is a French word and its plural is with an "x".

And that's my whole point.

You have been here before, done this before.  This should not be so hard.  You should not feel like you're walking among strangers. Or you should, but you should be able to maintain the proper distance to this particular tableau and see illusion from fact.  You should know that feeling foreign is just part of the painting you have to back up to see.  You should know that any separation you feel is a lie.

But most of all, you should be able to see how damaging shoulds are.

You do not know if this is the place, the one whose cobblestones will welcome you.  Either way, you still need to walk on them. 


Alison said...


Anonymous said...

@Anon - Most of the time yes. You?

Yes, but beaten down.

Nicole said...

Hmm - not confident we can be both happy and beaten. But you're surely wiser than me and know if it's possible. Shall we aim for happy and accepting? Beaten down implies resistance somewhere along the way and that's just banging your head against the wall.

Anonymous said...

Beaten down, but still believing vs. accepting and giving-up. Challenges can bring happiness while still beating you down. I've had a hard few months with kid 2 revisiting his addiction. Things are improving now. --- So, I'm happy, but beaten down. --M

Nicole said...

We agree without using the same words. Accepting for me isn't giving up, it's just acknowledging as opposed to denying. I'm so very sorry you all had to go through that again. I'm very happy you're happy.