Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Even though you can't see me, believe me, I'm scowling.

I'm in a foul, black, evil mood. It started on Monday and I'm not sure what it's all about and honestly, I don't want to talk about it , spewing negativity is just not my thing. You'd do best to just carry on.

Anyway, Lorraine (Here's the thing over on the links list) is coming to France in 2008. And that's just about the coolest thing ever. I love visits. Maybe that's part of the problem. I need more visits.

Sometimes living in a foreign country is the most freeing thing ever. And other times it's like a lead blanket. It's a lead blanket week.

On top of everything, Charlie (Highland Dreams, also over on your right) is visiting my mother's home state of North Carolina this week. And he's writing all about his travels (he lives on a strange island somewhere most of the time) and reading it is making me miss home even more. Even the bad stuff. And the silly stuff. And the inexplicably American stuff.

I haven't been home in nearly 4 years and I think that's just too long.

I wouldn't move back - it's not that. I guess you just have to go home sometimes to resourcify your roots. So I suppose that's it. My roots are feeling groundless and sourceless this week. Time for a touch-up.

9 comments:

Doc said...

ah, the creep of the winter homesickness black clowd thingy--its in the air. I have abad case of it too.

Samantha said...

Four years? Good lord woman, how do you do it?

charlie said...

nicole - i'm sorry if i have been the cause of any misery, or even added to it, or stuff like that. would it help if i said what a dreadful place north carolina is (a lie, btw)? no, didn't think so. could a chimpanzee help? probably not. besides, he stayed home to do the housework and, in any case, is only useful apropos subtexts. i'm now in alabama and it's raining heavily so perhaps that old ennui will pass in a while. stay tuned.

zeb said...

Scowling- this should help I am on day 20 something of my 12 hour shifts. I have had 2 days off since September 11th. I realize that no matter what I have going on, there is always someone who has it worse than us.

Does this mean I need to come in the spring?

beth said...

I miss seeing your face. . .even if it is "scowling". Are there any American goodies I can forward to you?

Grish said...

I hope your bad mood subsides soon. It`s cool you have friends makingplans to come see you...

beth said...

Zeb - you need to adopt the European work ethic - long lunches and 6 weeks vacation per year!

Nicole said...

doc and samantha - I knew you'd understand.

CBW - You're a good man Charlie Brown.

Zeb - Of course.

Beth - I'd rather you and J and the girls come for a visit.

Grish - Yes, thank god for friends.

Lorraine said...

4 years since you've been to the states, even longer since you've been to Seattle. Just saying. I'd feed you, you know.