Thursday, April 16, 2009

Lâcher prise

Lâcher - to let go
Prise - a hold, a grip

I wish I had more grace.  I wish I knew more about history.  I wish I learned lessons more easily.  I wish I were more serene.  I wish I knew what I am supposed to be doing.  I wish I didn't use self-destruction as a coping mechanism.  I wish I drank more tea and less coffee.  I wish I had more tools in my tool box.  

I had a dream the other day in which I jumped off a beautiful cliff.  I didn't hesitate, I just jumped and wondered if I would be afraid.  I wasn't.  It felt amazing.  I felt relieved and free.  It wasn't a suicide jump, it was a lâcher prise.  It was a hold I let go of.   

Question of the day:  when was the last time you let go of your hold?


Alison said...

You have no idea how much this speaks to me. As for the last time I let go, I'm trying to let go right now. Sometimes it's so hard.

beth said...

I don't think I have the tools in my mental tool box to let go

Nicole said...

Alison - hey, look me up on facebook Nicole M. Miller. Good luck on the letting go thing, you're in good company.

Beth- you're in good company too, that was definitely the tool box I was talking about.

The Idle Devil said...

I cant remember the last time I did let go like this! A part of me wants so much to hold back.

julie said...

Darling, you are ALL those things you said you wish you had...(except the coffee thing)believe it!

Lorraine said...

In Omaha.

Nicole said...

TID - I think that's true for everyone.

Julie - Thank you.

Lorraine - Lucky Omaha.

Alison said...

I looked you up, but there a lot of Nicole M. your profile pic of you sitting cross-legged?